As I start the move into my new apartment, a new life emerges from my skin and "Saying goodbye to those in my life that cause stress and pain" seems to be the only way that my true inner self can be released. The person that I am, has hidden behind people and feelings, and now that the negative aura is being erased, I'm free to move on and be myself. For almost 4 years I've placed my world in the palm of someones elses hand.
Three different boys equal three different perceptions of love, all resulting in weeks maybe months of insecurities and vulnerablities to every being that displayed emotions.There was this one that tried to give his whole heart and soul, in the end he proved to everyone that the love he sworn was genuine was in fact artificial and phony. Then the next who said every line in the book to make sure I was only his. Then as soon as I turned my back for one milisecond, goes finding another dame to cure his solitary life. The last pretended to have some concern for my life and well being when in turn only cared about his own existance and gaining as much attention as his head could possibly hold between each hit and every line tolerated.
Why I ever gave my affection to anyone is beyond me, and now that my head has come to the determination that I'm free from all previous encounters, I can conquer all the goals and destinations my somewhat trivial heart can endure. I believe its time to begin a new chapter in my life, one free of drama and unneccesary affairs. Goodbye old, hello new.
Monday, June 26, 2006
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